INTRODUCING, FIA IN THE "3 STAGES OF SLAP"

Not much. Just some eye makeup and powder.

Normal daily amount. Hair's a bit frizze.

WA WA WEE WA. I have never worn so much eye makeup/blusher in my life. I look like a bit of a slapper but hey, don't we all sometimes. I am so sad. When I am bored, I see how much makeup I can shove on and then see what it looks like on film. Or I try and copy makeup in magazines and then realise hey, maybe white eyeshadow isn't for me.

I might start a new xanga that replicated my labella_barbievita because I do miss that one.

Coming soon. Stay tuned.

I am really annoyed. Why is facebook the most exciting thing ever in the holidays, then as soon as school starts, nobody bloody comments you any more? They are not doing prep. Nobody sits at a computer and actually does their prep.

Anyway. Guess what? My stepdad doesn't go on my computer. Ever. Well, he has to for something to do with my computer screwin up or summinornuffin, but he said he didn't. That shocked me. I would on my kids. Not to spy on their privacy, I wouldn't look at their blogs or anything. But you don't want them going on bloody porno things, do you? Eh. I guess I have nothing to hide, anyway.

No-carb plan is out the window. Saw it coming. What a load of crap.

I desperatley need a job. I need money. I have so much to do and buy! Waxing! It costs a fortune! And tanning, and makeup, and all the rest. Grrr. Nobody needs me, it's crap.

Other than that, I'm pretty bored.

Oh, it is good to be back

Let me explain why I shut down my old xanga. I miss it quite a bit, actually. I didn't want the rents or anyone looking at it. Then I came back to england and was like oh, fuck it. Whatever. They know so much now anyway. My mum the other day (about my modelling) was like why'd you have to be so cheap and this and that. I respect her opinion, I don't expect her to be jumping for joy about it. But I think this is my life and as long as I don't harm anyone, and I'm safe and happy, then it's fine. I am not ashamed of my body and think the fact that I can make thousands of euros just by being a decent looking female is pretty wicked. I don't plan for it to be my only career because I have other passions. But if I can make a comfortable living and have some fun, and I have no problem with it, then why not? Anyway. In most other countries it's nothing to be ashamed of, at least not with our generation. Greeks, after all, think playboy is awesome. Not just the blokes. She also is convinced I'll start sleeping around which is bollocks. I'm not frigid with a guy I seriously like, but I won't do it with anyone, not even somebody I think is ok. There's a difference between a photo and physical skin-on-skin intimacy.

Rant over.

Speaking of my body . . .I am cutting carbs out after breakfast and seeing what happens. It could shift some excess fat. That way I'm not going mad like the atkins, but still making my body work a bit harder. I had some chicken and hard boiled eggs for lunch. It was alright. Don't know what tonight, though. Tuna?

I feel so rough. I've been going to school because quite simply, there is nothing else to do at home. I can't sleep and I get bored. But I feel all sick and shaky and full of cold. Ugh. Bleh. Maybe I need carbs. I don't know how this plan will last because I'm sick of it already. Literally.

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